Thursday, December 30, 2004
One of my Happy Thoughts
Yes....seeing him all tied up is one of my happy thoughts....
Doesn't he look just yummy or what?!!!!
Think Happy Thoughts...Think Happy Thoughts...
I hate to be cynical, but if you are only feeling "sorry" for those who died in the earthquake and Tsunami, it won't do a thing to help them at all.
With the "heart" and not the "hands" to put into action, all these feelings are all useless and a piece of crap.
I do not know if I've already become numb, call me cold-blooded if you want.
Trust me, I am one of those who might cry and feel crushed just seeing a dead body on the news.
I guess I am too afraid to know more about this disaster....
I hope those I know who live around that area...I hope you, your family and your friends are all alright.
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
Home at last......
I am back!!!!
After an almost 24-hour delay, I've finally stepped on this land, Kaohsiung, Taiwan once again.
My hometown.
A place I've left for five years.
And now I am back for the second time, I feel as if I've left this country for ages.
Everything seems unfamiliar yet familiar at the same time.
Kaohsiung, to a certain degree, remains the same.
It's still hot! Right now, even during the so-called winter time, I am only wearing a short polo shirt and jeans..
I don't miss the cold weather in San Francisco at all! It's warm here and I love it.
I am in one of those "Cyber Cafes" now...my first time experiencing this popular hobby that most many Taiwanese youngsters devour themselves in countless hours everyday. It feels really weird indeed.
I was strolling on the streets that I used to walk almost everyday to my elementary school. Everything is almost the same, except everything all seem smaller now.
Seeing my dear wai-gon and wai-po(grandfather and grandmother from my mother's side) once again, I had to try very hard not to cry, even though I've psyched myself repeatedly before I came to visit them.
I knew that wai-gon is sick, but I didn't know that he would look this weak. He has lost a lot of weight and seems weak and not very energetic at all.
He is not the same wai-gon that I've known anymore. I am heart-broken just to see him in this condition.
He has Parkinson's disease, an illness that has always been something of no importance at all to me.
Now it's as closers to me as it can be.
Someone so dear to me has the disease but I can't do anything about it. The medication he's taking has so many severe side affects that he has become so weak...
Okay I will try to write a happier entry in a few days...I have to. :(
Saturday, December 04, 2004
New layout. New beginning. Hopefully.
Decided to finally switch to a new template.
My blog now look much much brighter and easier to read.
This brighter layout might get my spirits back to the usual me.
Keep my fingers crossed.
I haven't been myself for the past few days.
When that happens, I'd constantly reminisce what's in the past.
And that, is a very bad thing to do.
Need to move forward, need to move forward.
Umm...maybe repeat those words before I go to bed tonight might help.
Well, anyhow, will end my entry for today on a lighter note.
My little plan to getWorld Journal to write a news article on Project SHINE is going smoothly.
Although I am still not feeling comfortable of being interviewed and taken pictures of, the feeling of accomplishing a task, well, going to accomplish a task if everything goes as planned, is just great.
My blog now look much much brighter and easier to read.
This brighter layout might get my spirits back to the usual me.
Keep my fingers crossed.
I haven't been myself for the past few days.
When that happens, I'd constantly reminisce what's in the past.
And that, is a very bad thing to do.
Need to move forward, need to move forward.
Umm...maybe repeat those words before I go to bed tonight might help.
Well, anyhow, will end my entry for today on a lighter note.
My little plan to get
Although I am still not feeling comfortable of being interviewed and taken pictures of, the feeling of accomplishing a task, well, going to accomplish a task if everything goes as planned, is just great.
Friday, December 03, 2004
新版面.新氣象.
換了個新版面
整個感覺開朗多了
期許自己的心情也會開朗起來
最近老是想著:
如果自己沒做什麼什麼
如果自己能做了這些這些
如果自己沒碰到這個人.....的話
現在的我,
應該是怎麼樣的...
很難控制自己的腦袋不去想這些沒有用的瑣事
如果可以
我想跟一個人交換頭腦
那個人 只會想著: 明天該作什麼,以後該如何計劃
向前看....
是該強迫自己只能這樣做了...
半夜三更獨自打著自己blog的文
真是胡思亂想的好時刻呀(笑)
一直很喜歡這幅圖
已經不記得是在那裡找到的
是漫畫裡的插圖? 有人知道嗎?
發覺
跟我的新版面很合耶
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
Lately.
Lately, When I Close My Eyes
I see,
everything but darkness.
I feel,
everything but serenity.
I hear,
everything but silence.
Uneasiness sets in.
The most unbearable five minutes.
Heck, am I sleep-deprived?
