Life. Forward.

Closing down...

2006-06-04T16:06:00.000-07:00

I will no longer update this blog.
Future entries will be moved to : http://dendenmaru.livejournal.com/
Past entries with pics of me, my friends and family members will all be deleted...

Decided to switch to livejournal because it has more advanced features for privacy.
I've "friend-locked" some of the more personal entries there. To be able to see them, you will need to post a comment in my "open" entries to ask to be "friended". :3

Sore jya.. mata!

影片灌水日

2006-02-23T01:01:00.000-08:00

說了一遍還真是不夠...
惡作劇之吻真的很棒...林依晨好討人喜歡,演技也很自然
看了惡作劇的特別節目...看到她一下子就感動到淚流滿面..
我想她本人就是感情豐富吧
好可愛呢 =D

鄭元暢外型是非常吸引人...不過演技我覺得可以繼續加油...
(不過他真的是長的很好看)*笑

惡作劇之吻的mv

===========================================
很可愛的節目片段
小綜跟那個, 呃,我想是賀軍翔吧..兩個人重新演出一些經典廣告的爆笑版

2006-02-19T12:40:00.000-08:00

惡作劇之吻最高~!!!!!
很輕鬆自然的喜劇...好久沒看個電視劇看的這麼愉快的了..
比起日劇版的, 我倒是比較喜歡這個台灣版的 <3 style="text-decoration: underline;">

My dad is moving back to Taiwan at the end of this month..
We took this picture when we went to see a tennis tourament in San Jose.

As time goes by...

2006-02-08T16:35:00.000-08:00

I also forget to update my blog... -_-;;
Just want to let those who still read my blog know that yes I am still ALIVE.
Doing the things that I always do...schooling, eating, breathing etc.

I am moving into a new place in downtown San Francisco so it's going to be pretty exciting..hopefully.

I went to see Brokeback Mountain.
The movie is NOT for everyone.
The theme is universal: a forbidden love. Yet I don't think everyone can understand or appreciate this film.
But hey...I love it!

My livejournal blog

2005-12-23T19:19:00.000-08:00

Haven't been doing much of updating on this blog.
I actually have a livejournal account and have been pretty active there.
http://www.livejournal.com/users/dendenmaru/

The entries there are mostly about BL(boy's love) mangas and drama cds.
Some of the entries there are friend-locked,though. You can't really see them unless you have a livejournal ID and I add you to my friend list.

Anyhow, Christmas is here and frankly I don't give a (censored) about it.
Every year is spent with a bunch of relatives that I really do not care much about.
What's worse is that winter here in San Francisco means A LOT of rains.
*sighs

My life. Rated.

2005-12-16T23:16:00.000-08:00

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	6.1
Mind:	5.8
Body:	8
Spirit:	5.5
Friends/Family:	4.7
Love:	2.1
Finance:	3.6
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

時事小感(?)

2005-12-04T15:58:00.000-08:00

看了台灣縣市長選舉的結果
一半是很欣慰, 因為台灣人還是很幸運的可以經過投票一途來明明白白的告訴政府
"你們實在是做的太糟糕了"
人民還是有個可以表達自己聲音的管道..
我仍然覺得台灣不是個真正的民主法治國家
但是人民善用自己投票的權利已經是個很好的起頭了

另一方面也是覺得擔憂...
政府會不會好好的看看自己, 好好的進行改革
這還是未知的
而且, 不是為了選票, 而是為了台灣人民

話說...舊金山現在好冷 >____<

狗狗占卜

2005-11-28T20:46:00.000-08:00

從小狐那裡偷來的 ,

狗狗占卜
依出生年月日找出屬於你的狗狗

狼犬
很有自己的想法，一旦沈迷一件事，就會不顧別人的感想。

基本性格
意志非常堅強，堅持自己的想法，不會因為別人的意見而動搖，對已決定的事顯得很熱衷，會很努力的去完成自己的目標；當所有人的情緒都很激動時，你卻能保持冷靜，所以能發揮你的領袖特質，而且你很有上進心，覺得任何事都會帶來好處，而對自己有益的人，你也會積極的去交往，是個堅強而且耐力十足的人，不達目的絕不輕易罷手，對於自己熱衷的事，很少去聽別人的建言，常常一個人行動，而引起危險，有時候自己的方法也會行不通，反而容易半途而癈，因此適時放輕鬆也是很重要的。

適合的類型
和你最合的上司是牧羊犬，他會常常關心你的動向，也會替你承擔一些錯誤，是個理想的上司；下屬的話，正直的馬爾濟斯和你最合，聰明的他，是你的好助手，朋友則要選擇像姊姊一樣溫柔的土狗型，和他在一起，不論你是撒嬌或耍賴，他都不會介意，不過，也不能太過份哦！

不適合的類型
相反的，最不合的就是獵犬，他的冷淡和沒人情味，對凡事積極的你來說，是最無法信任的，你坦白的表現卻得不到他的回應，令人覺得白費功夫，還是保持一點距離比較好。

我覺得, 很準呢
http://home.kimo.com.tw/ewormeworm/city/fate/02/dog.htm

舊金山開始變的他x的冷..而且慣例的開始下起雨來
讓人有非常想罵髒話的衝動

純灌水... :3

2005-11-16T00:15:00.000-08:00

我的無名小站的相簿
無聊時去那澆澆水吧 \(^_^)/
(ask me for address! :p )

感恩節又快到了呀...*感嘆中

每次聽到一定哭的歌

2005-11-14T09:00:00.000-08:00

會有那麼一天

一九四三　世界大戰　
阿嬤年輕的時候
爺爺愛他那麼多　
他們感情很深
但是爺爺　身負重任　
就在離鄉的那夜
給了阿嬤一個吻　
輕聲說道

我要離去　別再哭泣　
不要傷心　請你相信我
要等待我的愛　
陪你永不離開
因為會有那麼一天　
我們牽著手在草原聽
鳥兒歌唱的聲音　聽我說聲　我愛你

夕陽西下　鳥兒回家　
阿嬤躺在病床上
呼吸有一點散漫　眼神卻很溫柔
看著爺爺　濕透的眼　
握著他粗糙的手
阿嬤淚水開始流　輕聲說道

我要離去　別再哭泣　
不要傷心　請你相信我
要等待我的愛　
陪你永不離開
因為會有那麼一天　
我們牽著手在草原聽
鳥兒歌唱的聲音　聽我說聲　我愛你
++++++++++++++++++++++++++

真的是屢試不爽..感人的歌詞+林俊傑那還算清亮的歌聲
我每次聽都會哭的很慘(笑)
如果說愛情是永恆不變, 這首歌就真的把它形容的很真切

我把這首歌上傳了..
想要的就點下面的連結, 再按那個網頁裡的"download"就可以了
http://s11.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=2RF5F44OLV4J80OAO64PL74L82

Welcoming a new little, tiny life to the world..

2005-11-11T22:43:00.000-08:00

My dear sister's newborn baby boy!
He is so adorable isn't he....

I feel like crying...
Yeah. I will do just that.

Yes it's an iPod Shuffle.

2005-11-02T22:10:00.000-08:00

Thanks to my friend who really went all out to help me make this amazing Rin costume.
Yes she made the entire costume for me.
Anan you rock!

We saw a lot of amazing costumes at the Halloween street party.
There was Wolverine from X-men, sumo-man, TONS of penis-men(buwahahaha) and yes, an iPod Shuffle.
And that was my friend Daniel as Neo from Matrix.
Passerbys kept yelling at him "Neo!! It's Neo!!"

一個十五歲生命的消逝

2005-10-25T01:19:00.000-07:00

只有心痛, 是不夠的

我想我也不能期待台灣的媒體報紙來當作人民的傳聲筒吧
我想我也不能期待現在什麼都做不好的政府, 想出方針來解決這個嚴重至極的問題吧

回想起高中時的我, 算是很幸運了..
反倒是國中時的我....算是個迷惑的青少年吧
我會在自己的房間裡念書...
一個人.
念到一半會無原無故的拿著美工刀劃自己的膝蓋

可能, 覺得自己沒有活著的感覺吧

很怪齁..我

至少, 我還活著
而那個才15歲的男孩, 已拋棄了自己的人生.

Fukuyama Jun is teh LOVE!

2005-10-25T00:01:00.000-07:00

I mean, his VOICE.
It's a personal preference but I just adore his voice.

Now V6 is drifting further and further away from my point of interest..>_<

San Francisco is extremely foggy and cold today.
Hate this kind of shitty weather.

Will try to find the boots and leather straps for my Halloween custome tomorrow..

Now a nice music video with a cute story inside. :)

Cool stuff

2005-10-24T00:45:00.000-07:00

I can actually upload a video myself and post it on my blog.
Yay! (feels accomplished) :P

This is one of my favorite V6 singles Dasenai Tegami, released a few years back.
BUT, Okada looks absolutely horrific. :|

And this is their latest single, Orange.
Gosh how people can change in just a few years.
I like this song. : )

Halloween

2005-10-23T02:07:00.001-07:00

My planned cosplay character for the Halloween party:
リン from 咎狗の血

I am very excited about it :DDD
It's gonna be COLD that night..but fun!

My new toy.

2005-10-17T20:05:00.000-07:00

(Goes back to play with it a little bit more)
And that's Aoyagi Seimei from Loveless on my cell wallpaper
^_____^

Me

2005-10-15T03:39:00.000-07:00

So I can look back 10 years from now and laugh at how young and silly I used to look. : )

(pics deleted for privacy reasons)

Uh umm..and I really should try NOT to stay up this late..

2005-10-08T22:44:00.000-07:00

So many people died.
Children.

I feel so powerless.

我的第二個護照

2005-10-04T23:03:00.000-07:00

前幾天收到了我的美國護照和公民證書
心情很複雜
一想到下次回台灣時我可以選擇秀我的台灣護照或是美國護照就....
It's a very odd feeling.
Hard to describe it...

我現在應該可以正式成為我的"adopted country"的一員了吧..
忽然想起國中還是高中時國文課念到的一篇文章
作者形容自己人在異鄉, 就像, 失去了根的落葉(大概是這樣吧*笑)

現在的我呀...已經沒有這種感覺了
我還記得剛搬到舊金山的前幾年
我會,看著高中好友寄給我的信和卡片流淚
聽到阿妹的聽海, 會想到高中音樂課跟慧齡一起表演這首歌呢
我唱,慧齡比手語(笑)

第一次回台灣時, 看到久違的朋友和外公外婆的感動, 我永遠無法忘記
現在, 我回台灣時, 還是不想回到舊金山
但是, 感覺不太一樣了..

美國對我一個台灣來的女孩子, 還真的是蠻好的
只要去爭取, 我什麼都可以做到
台灣, 我相信, 有一天也會擺脫亞洲國家普遍的性別岐視的趨勢
成為一個"機會每個人都可以去擁有"的地方

我朋友最近回去台灣了一趟
已經四五年沒回去的她
唯一對她的故鄉的印象: 社會風氣變的很亂,很低俗
我想每一個很久沒回台灣的台灣人, 都會有如此的感嘆吧

I wonder, 有沒有住在台灣的人,也發覺了, 也想著:"這樣下去不行!!!!"了呢?

*Yawns

2005-09-23T14:48:00.000-07:00

God Hates Stupid Homophobes!
Another rant from your neighborhood
click here

Yes the reason why I do not believe in God.

Sill. In. Awe.

2005-09-19T20:53:00.000-07:00

Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children is one amazing movie.
CG at its best.
Definitely.

Not to mention those incredible Seiyuu sans that've brought those characters to life.
Morikawa Toshiyuki as Sephiroth is just badass-sexy good. xD
Morikubo Shoutarou is excellent as well as Kadaj.
He is such a sad villian, considering he is even the bad guy in this movie.
There is no way I'd listen to the dubbed version.

And yes. Vincent Valentine
Gosh I can never resist a guy in red.
heh.

嘿嘿嘿...

2005-09-09T00:49:00.000-07:00

我還真是無聊阿...>_>

け攻め度チェック

占いの結果
FallenStarさんは天然受です！
● 天然受の貴方は
★性格★
おおらかで人情味あふれる人です。
明るくさっぱりした性格で態度や表現も背伸びすることがなく、等身大でありのまま。
ただ裏表がないので思ったことをズバズバと口にしてしまう傾向もあるので注意が必要です。
強さと優しさをあわせ持った魅力あふれる人情派といえるでしょう。

★夜の性格★
いつも自然体でいるので、気付かないうちに相手を魅了しています。
どことなく慣れた雰囲気があるので相手は嫉妬が強くなり、激しく乱暴に突かれることもしばしば。
そんな乱暴な行為にも感じている貴方を見て、相手は興奮して余計激しくなったりも。
ちょっとは自分の行動を意識してみましょう。かなり罪作りですよ。

★相性★
鬼畜攻・自己中攻

● FallenStarさんを見守る神様は、昼寝の神様です。

Umm...sneakers

2005-08-30T21:11:00.000-07:00

(汗)
跑去奇摩拍賣逛了一下
綠色和黑色那個Chuck Taylor是我最想要的
怡靜...你有時間幫我找找嗎?如果價錢還算合理的話...
其實我很喜歡你那隻龍(奸笑)
它是高筒的對不對?

今天舊金山好熱..有25度吧...好舒服喔 :)
好久沒有享受這種曬著太陽昏昏欲睡的滋味了

買了一雙黑色的皮長靴
卻發現能配它的衣服沒多少....

最近的改變：長髮捲捲頭→短髮捲捲頭

2005-08-23T23:20:00.000-07:00

如標題所示,我把那還算飄逸的長髮給剪了
留長髮留太久的後遺症就是穿衣服時手還是會不自覺的撥一下頭髮 O_O

現在要煩惱明天起床時要怎麼整這顆捲捲頭了

報告一下近況:
啥新鮮事都沒發生
學校明天就開學了
目前很迷Gypsy skirt.還在找尋我要的那件裙和配它的長靴 :D

變成美國公民也沒什麼特殊感覺
除了可以投票外..沒什麼不一樣的

怡靜小姐你最近都在幹嘛阿?
有空幫我物色一雙Converse的鞋子嗎? 想買一雙中筒的那種

照起來一點都不捲...好奇怪

A day that I will not forget

2005-08-04T23:38:00.000-07:00

Today I went to the citizenship interview.
I passed. (And yes they did ask those questions about this country's government and such)

Not feeling excited.
But I am grateful.
For my parents' incredible efforts to make this a reality.

So after six years of living in this foreign land,
I will become one of them.

Ummmm.....or will I?

Because I need a break..

2005-07-25T15:03:00.000-07:00

Place: My college library computer lab.
Reason for doing this: If I don't I will definitely fall asleep from studying.

So there you go.
Current obsessions:

- BL Drama CDs
- Gravitation
- Loveless
- BL/Yaoi mangas
- Yaoi
- Yaoi
- Yaoi XD
- Ragnarok
- Skirts (florally, especially green-ish florally skirts)
- Apple Cider
- Def Tech
- Fukuyama Jun
- Sexy voices (hence my recent uncontrollable love for seiyuu)
- Dogs
- Okay time for me to get back to my study

..........*sighs

Something good happened.

2005-07-15T03:08:00.000-07:00

My DSL connection is back.
Yay! XD

Got myself a brand new modem and fixed the damn thing back to normal.
Can finally do some game-playing(my ragnarok sin!) before school starts next week.
So then I gave myself a little reward:
One picture-perfect bowl of yummy strawberries!

=============================

I went to see my favorite musical last week.
Les Misérables
It had become my #1 favorite musical the moment I listened to the songs from the CD several years back.
My friend, who went to see the musical with me that night kept telling me how great Phantom of the Opera is..
I like that musical as well..but not as much.
I guess I never really dig love stories, in any kind performance forms.

Les Miz is not about two people falling in love.
It's about people's lives.
How they struggle to survive,to love, and to forgive.
Well, it's damn touching in my opinion anyway.

Seeing the show with my own eyes and not just listening to the songs on the CD is a even more powerful experience..
The songs, the actors/actress' voices went straight into me.

Trivial things and such.

2005-07-12T15:18:00.000-07:00

My stupid DSL connection has been down the for the past one week and this really sucks.
Wanted to update my blog but couldn't.
So right now I am using this freakishly slow dial-up to write this entry....
Overly dependent on one thing is really a horrible thing to do.

狐鈴!Welcome back!!
Sorry I haven't be able to talk to you...but glad that you made it through HELL! xD
Don't worry about the novel, as I've abandoned mine as well...with no progress at all...
I am still on my summer break but my suummer school starts soon.
How about you?
Do you plan to do anything fun before school starts?

Dear Bill bro, I am so sorry for not contacting you for such a long time.
Well as you can see from my previous blog entry, my sister got married.
It was one hell of an experience for me. A lot of things happened beforehand,too..
Anyhow, I hope you are doing alright.
My DSL connection is still down but as soon as it's back to normal, I will talk with you on msn messenger.

Watched War of the Worlds last weekend.
It was pretty good, despite the fact that there is barely any plot at all.
I sure felt the fear those ppl felt in the movie.

I think I've lost my passion in my favorite 6-guy-group.
I didn't buy their 10th anniversary single.
Stopped paying attention to their news.
Stopped downloading shows related to them.
Stopped writing novels about them.

Have no clue whatsoever to why it happened.
But that's how it is now...

It feels weird.

Life.

2005-06-28T22:21:00.000-07:00

我的老妹上個星期日結婚了
雖然我只是僅僅一個伴娘
但, 真的, 婚禮一生裡一次就夠了

小小一個規模的婚禮, 從準備到踏進教堂那一刻, 壓力還真是不算小

我如果將來有足夠的金錢(或是我未來老公的金錢 :P)
我的婚禮絕對要在海灘上舉行
大家都只要赤腳就好了
多舒服阿

覺得自己一定不會哭的我
還是在婚禮後的晚宴過後, 看著我的老妹幸福的笑容, 哭了
我媽就更不用說了..真的是很捨不得吧...

老妹,你不幸福的話就對不起我們這些愛你的家人了喔

婚禮,晚宴過後在家裡的一個小小的after-party
*從左至右:
伴郎(也是我妹夫的好友),我妹(可惜她把婚紗脫了),她親愛的老公,和我堂哥(很謝謝他幫忙裝飾新娘車和充當駕駛)

Cheers!

隔天, 我還是蠻多感觸的..情緒有點複雜
不只是對於我妹,而是對我自己,家人...和人生吧
於是....
多謝我的朋友Fed, 我跟他跑去Denny's吃了一份不怎麼營養的晚餐
又跑去看了Batman Begins..(很棒的電影!)
看完心情好多了...thank you so much, Fed! *hugs

我的減壓(?)餐...at Denny's

以後看到這部電影, 大概會多一層意義吧

In my silly-mode.

2005-06-05T23:36:00.000-07:00

XDDDDD
I am Ryuichi!
Kumaguro!LOL

In the anime, he is in his chibi form 95% of the time..
Gosh..simply too cute to resist..
Umm..I wonder where I can find its manga to read..

Sakuma Ryuichi-You're cute and cuddly most of the
time, but when you feel the music, you turn
dark and sexy.

Which Anime Bishie Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

A change of moods.

2005-05-21T04:10:00.000-07:00

看了這個照片
想要不心情好起來也難
實在是太可愛了

魔荳死掉了還是很傷心
有點逃避似的故意不去想它
畢竟是遠渡太平洋來的禮物...

怡靜對不起!

最近迷上了一個漫畫叫LOVELESS
說起來這個漫畫其實蠻變態的
裡面的人在還沒發生性關係之前都有著一雙貓耳朵和尾巴
日本人連這個都想的出來也算很厲害了

我喜歡這個漫畫當然不是因為這個原因(笑)
而是這個漫畫帶著跟其他shoujo漫畫不同的黑暗神秘感
故事很複雜...我看到第四集了還是有一大堆疑問
更別提裡面某位角色動不動就對12歲的主角說"請懲罰我!"了 (SM?!)XD
Umm....這個漫畫還真是十足成人向.....

有時候...

2005-05-19T07:22:00.000-07:00

很不喜歡動不動就胡思亂想的自己
好像是我媽媽說的吧..
"讀書是很寂寞的"
我,很同意呢

最近在想..其實我不用一直這樣孤獨一個人阿..
孤獨對我來說真的是令人又愛又恨

自從五年前那一個真的是亂七八糟的,根本算不上是一段relationship的relaionship之外
我到現在都沒有接受任何一個人或是新感情
真的是很不可思議..

不是沒有不錯的人出現, 而是我根本無法在愛另外一個人了吧
他大概永遠都不會知道他加諸給我的傷害

我還記得在高中時,看到班上同學為情而困..
我還很輕鬆的對自己說著:我永遠都不需要談戀愛
真的是,很天真,很一無所知.
那時的我

時間, 真的有用
因為現在想起五年前那些日子, 已經不痛不癢.

幾乎..已經不痛不癢

**************************

話說,我的魔痘死掉了
舊金山的風, 太刺骨了..

我也躲到被窩裡去吧

逃避.

My un-anti-pinkness. XD

2005-04-25T00:35:00.000-07:00

Never was fond of anything pink-related.
From mouthless Hello Kitty to seeing a Japanese young girl saying "my favorite color is pinku!"

It simply annoys me.

But then it hit me.
It's silly to dislike a color, isn't it.
I am too old for that.

Anyhow, so I bought myself a pair of pink shoes.
They still have my favorite color green on them, mind you.

But hey, at least I am wearing something pink on me now.

時間與生命

2005-04-12T23:07:00.000-07:00

看起來故作嚴肅的主題
其實...也只不過想要更新一下我的blog而已

怡靜送我的魔豆已經成長到我無法控制的情況
證據如下:

在繼續爬下去的話我只能把它搬出去了...
可是這裡的夜晚好冷 >_<

昨天接到了一份讓我重新元氣起來的信
謝謝你, Kelsey!
現在那些照片已經在我房間的牆上了
因為是你親自照的, 所以倍顯親切~~

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上個禮拜在網路上下載到一個訪問蔣友常蔣友柏的節目
去年年底回台灣才知道他們很受歡迎, 也才知道原來他們是蔣方智怡的兒子
在這裡的某黨某聚會還跟她有見過一面...

之前, 只覺得兩兄弟長的還不錯, 如此而已
看過這個訪問之後... 感想:他們的父母親都教的很棒
一言一語之間, 有的只有自信
蔣家的光環(還是包袱?)把他們都磨的既銳利又圓滑
哥哥尤甚如此...是個很聰明的人
還是不太瞭解他們父親囑咐他們決不可碰政治的理由
不過, 在台灣亂成一團的政治不像政治的情況下, 他們父親的決定是睿智的

我真的很愛台灣
可是看到台灣電視台新聞, 我只能搖頭嘆氣
是社會風氣帶動的這個"新聞一定要煽情血腥才是新聞"的鐵律
還是是正好相反?

媒體的社會影響有多大
難道台灣沒有一個記者有這樣的認知?

The night-out

2005-03-25T00:11:00.000-08:00

Went to see a fashion show tonight at a club downtown.
Haven't really done this in quite a while so it felt refreshing.

A change in my daily routine is good for me I guess.
Been doing almost nothing but studying and studying..
All those studying has probably made me a dull person already...lol

The fashion show tonight featured some designers from the Bay Area.
Well, I was a bit disappointed.
Only a few caught my attention.
More color is definitely needed.
Now I can understand the reason behind those seemingly un-wearable clothes models wear at those world-class fashion shows.
Without exaggeration, those clothes would just seem too ordinary to be shown on the runway.

Still, watching those models walk on those incredibly high heels and strike those exaggerated poses is quite an experience for me indeed.
Not to mention I was standing right next to the stage.

This model basically torn her clothes apart to reveal the lingerie underneath.
Excitement from the audience ensured.

Formula 17

2005-03-20T01:21:00.000-08:00

Watched a movie called Formula 17.
An absolutely delightful film!

It's probably the only Taiwanese movie that I've seen so far that has broken the "all Taiwanese movies are arthouse only" rule.
The movie is basically a simple love story but with a tiny twist.
It's not about a naive girl looking for her prince charming love story.
But a really really naive seventeen boy looking for his prince charming.
Yep.

I was surprised how well-received this movie was in the Taiwanese box-office, let alone to say that this movie is purely a gay comedy.
I guess it's too hard to resist this movie.
It's light-hearted. Fast paced.
Not a drop of the angst that many might associate with films of this genre.
Just like the director mentioned in a magazine interview, this movie is just about love and nothing else.
That, makes this film so charming...
And the message this movie sends is clear: love sure can conquer all.

Don't they just look adorable? *coughs

孽子

2005-03-17T03:38:00.000-08:00

終於看了孽子。

裡面每一個角色的感情
都真實的讓我覺得害怕
每次看到如此真實誠實的詮釋戲裡面的角色的戲劇
都會讓我看到過於入戲

但是這次
我一直看到最後一幕，我才真正流下淚來
因為太沉重，因為太真實
沉重到，真實到我哭不出來....

李青和趙英的那一段沒有開始也沒有結局的愛
反而是最讓我心痛的
因為很單純，很簡單，所以很深刻

他們在書店不期而遇的那一個片段
是整齣戲裡最讓我抓住心喊痛的一幕
因為李青看著趙英的眼神，真的令人心碎
無法挽回的痛和依然存在著的對趙英的愛
都在李青的眼裡看到了。

范植偉的演技，跟准一很類似
同樣的細微，自然，生動
兩年前在這裡的國際影展看美麗時光時，就已經有了同樣的驚豔
希望能看到他更多的作品

阿鳳和龍子的那一段
因為太過戲劇化
反而，沒有那麼的刻骨。
但是庹宗華的演技，two thumbs up!

最後,阿青給他父親那本三國演義
讓我痛哭出聲
阿青父親擦著眼淚將那本書緊緊抱在胸前
原諒了他的兒子

我想
這一幕會留在我腦海裡很多天

24年前的今天

2005-03-10T23:33:00.000-08:00

民國70年3月十號晚上9點
在高雄802醫院,一個重3100公克的小baby出生了。
因為有黃疸,這個baby還在保溫箱住了好幾天。

這個baby,今天滿24歲了

真的很難想像我已經20歲都快過一半了
在美國生活這樣算是歲月如梭嗎?(笑)
不管如何,今天的我,不應該慶祝我的生日的
而是,
感謝我的老媽
從我出生開始,犧牲了多少東西,無形或是有形的,都是為了我和我妹妹

這一切,
是絕對無法以金錢來衡量
或許,只能說
她付出的一切,以我已經活了24年來看
實在是太多,太多了。

所以,謝謝你,老媽

March 10, 1981. 24 years ago....

2005-03-10T23:09:00.000-08:00

My mother gave birth to a baby that weighted 3100 grams and had to be kept in the Isolette for days because of having Jaundice (yellow skin & eyes).

That baby was me.
And I just turned 24 today.

So today, I am not to celebrate MY birthday but to say thanks to my mom.
Thank you mom, for bearing me inside you for 9 months and most importantly, devoted yourself, all by yourself, brought me and sister up while working full-time as a school teacher without my dad's presence for he was 99% away from home in the Army.
Thank you for sacrificing so much for us so that me and my sister could come to USA to pursue a better future.

Someone once asked me, "who is the person that you admire the most?"
I replied," My mother."
The answer will always be the same.

晴天娃娃你在那裡?

2005-02-20T21:29:00.000-08:00

整個禮拜都在下雨。。。。。
舊金山今年的雨季過頭的長
我討厭下雨天！
這樣的藍天躲到那裡去了？

魔荳健康成長中呦，怡靜 ^_____^
只不過這個禮拜完全沒出太陽、讓我有點擔心小荳(笑)會不會吸收陽光不太夠...

小荳生長史~

↓

只不過長出來的芽沒有字了呢，只有豆莢上有...

又看了一次虎與龍，雖然還是很多地方聽不懂，看baby和准一耍白癡就已經很好玩了
還是最喜歡詮釋這種角色的准一
大喇喇的，卻很善良
看到Ryu向Megumi現他那件俗到極點的黃色背心，實在令人莞爾

Watched "Tiger and Dragon" once again. I still love to see Junichi portray this kind of character best.
Rude but kind. Bussan mitai na...
I couldn't help but laugh out when Ryu showed Megumi that cheesy yellow blouse designed by him...

It has been raining heavily in San Francisco for over a week...
which is extremely annoying. I don't like rainy days at all!
Plus, my friend gave me a present before I left Taiwan last month.
It's a really cute plant that grows out of an egg.
Yep...an egg.
The sprout even has two words on it: Happy and Happiness. Cute huh?
"Gives it LOTS of sunshine," says so on the instruction.
And the sun hasn't really shown much of its face...

小虎牙的生辰

2005-02-20T01:21:00.000-08:00

嗯?
好像是第一次呦
寫剛的生日感想

剛認識V6時，很不喜歡森田剛
老是臭著一張臉、眉頭總是皺起的
更不用說那很很很怪異的笑聲了。

是那個壞男孩的虛浮假象騙了我(笑)

後來漸漸了解了之後
發覺這個帶有虎牙笑顏的男孩，其實是個過分可愛的敏感膽小鬼一個!
真正完完全全的陷入，是看完那集校瘋
那集剛去泰國的校瘋
心疼、也心動

因為、這種個性的男生我是完全沒有抵抗力的嘛!!!!

一直覺得田田這兩隻個性很類似
只是、他們兩個處理的方式非常兩極
現在只要看到V們，我的目光，很難離開剛(和准一)....

本來打定要去看你初舞台的表演
因為現實因素不得不放棄
不過這個暑假一定!!!!

20歲過了超過一半的你
請繼續散發那獨一無二的笑容和笑聲!!

嗯...不知准一和V4們會送你什麼禮物呢...

Happy Birthday!!

那，附上我的賀禮
請大家自己收藏就好了，不要將連結外傳
因為有25人的上傳限制，就當作是限定分享吧

Download away! My one-day only Morita Go's 26th B-Day SP DL!
Please do not repost this link anywhere else.
And this is a 25 downloads limit..
Keep this as your personal collection only please.

http://s32.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=0J4ABYLL6I0S63TQ4F5ZFS6MLE

Year of Rooster

2005-02-09T01:08:00.000-08:00

My new year presents: red envelopes, oranges, and apple.
All for good fortunate for the coming year.
This year is MY year for I was born in the year of Rooster.
And supposely, I should watch out for bad lucks instead.
Odd isn't it?
Shouldn't it be the opposite?
Oh well.

已經好久沒有感受到真正過年的氣氛了
那種期待的心情早已不在
那種知道大年初一一睜開眼就會看見枕頭旁躺著一顆大椪柑的傳統、已不再繼續
彷彿那只是小孩子的特權
也對，I am a child no more.
跟表弟妹玩撲克牌、知道玩整晚大人都不會罵的興奮心情，嗯‧‧到那兒去了呢？
外婆的年糕、香腸和臘肉，也已經在我的年夜飯桌上缺席了五年

明天一大早還要上課呢‧‧‧

在美國渡過的第六個農曆新年
感想：真的是很寒冷呀‧‧‧

人說本命年沖太歲
要去廟裡拜拜
我說，這未免也太不合理了吧﹝笑﹞
應該是剛好相反才對!

我那些也是屬雞的朋友們，你們同意嗎？
不管如何，願你們都有個平安順利的一年!

也希望我愛的外公外婆都能身體健康、快快樂樂！

Happy New Year!

Nice and Tasty?

2005-02-05T19:24:00.000-08:00

Stole this from Foxy.

F	Fast
A	Appreciative
L	Light
L	Little
E	Energetic
N	Nice
S	Square
T	Tasty
A	Appealing
R	Rare

Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com

And, uh, the "Icecream Test"..

Your Icecream Flavour is...Neopolitan!

You aren't satisfied with just one flavor. They say variety is the spice of life and this shines through in your Ice cream of choice! Just don't eat all the chocolate and leave the strawberry and vanilla behind!

What is your Icecream Flavour?

My brandnew toy.新玩具 XD

2005-02-03T23:56:00.000-08:00

My first digital camera. Well, our first one, in my family.
SONY DSC P-100

My mom's comment after showing her the pictures I took today:
"Can't believe that you spent 300 bucks for a toy."

Well, it's a toy that I won't be able to get tired of soon, that I know.

終於有了一個自己的數位相機，真是玩上癮了...
我的老媽看完我今天照的成果之後，唯一的感想是：唉，花了三百塊買了個給你玩的玩具 -_-

我承認，它長的也太像個玩具了..那麼小一個....

上面那一張是我們家的蘭花一枚...
照片名稱: 狗屁運氣賺來的假象...(哇哈哈哈...)

那透過花瓣的光...就是我指的“狗屁運氣”....LOL

Friends. 朋友. 友達.

2005-01-26T20:25:00.000-08:00

I paid a visit to my high school Tsoying Senior High School with my three high school buddies.
School hasn't changed much. And neither have we.

珮琪, 你是真的一點都沒變呢
還是爛好人一個!!(緊抱)
這次感覺好像沒聊夠呢..
沒關係, 下次繼續.
一切都要加油!

慧齡變的比較有女人味了哦, 不論氣質或是穿著都是 =D
這次也沒聊到多少!!!! >_< 也是下次繼續哦! 謝謝你的禮物, 我會好好聆聽的怡靜的話...(笑), 很日系?

Took a trip to Taichung with Zoe, who is a graduate school student at Feng Chia University.
The famous Luce Chapel, designed by I.M. Pei (Ieoh Ming Pei), is located inside Tunghai University.
I had heard so much about it but was a bit disappointed when actually seeing it for myself.
It was..well, smaller than what I'd expected.
Tunghai University, however, is a really beautiful school.

親眼看到了教堂, 其實有點失望
比我想像中的小多了
不過東海真的是個蠻漂亮的學校
一進去就是一個林蔭大道迎接我們
宿舍也蓋的好像小木屋似的
不過, 逢甲就有趣多了!

Lying against one side of the church, we were, uh, "feeling" it, though you really can't see much of the church itself but me and my friend's heads.

靠在教堂的一面
我們在"感受"著它
不過我和怡靜的兩顆頭已佔了畫面的90%吧(笑)
那樣躺著真的蠻舒服的....

And somehow, the dates on the photos are all wrong.
I guess Taiwanese-made Digi-cam still needs to work on its...accuracy.

怡靜, 這次跟你在台中玩的很過癮!!
吃的,看的,穿的, 都玩到了
逢甲夜市讓我大開眼界的不是裡面的日系味十足的店
而是和我們擦身而過的人群(笑)

我們也聊了一下自己的近況...
怡靜還是跟以前一樣, 講話很犀利 :)
其實我有點好奇, 在怡靜眼裡, 我有變嗎?
在其他人的眼裡呢?

Anyways, 回到冷冷濕濕的舊金山(真的很冷!), 心情是有點失落
不過, 還是要振作....(苦笑)

Back to reality

2005-01-25T16:38:00.000-08:00

Flew back from Taiwan yesterday.

The moment that I walked in to the living room in Daly City, I had a funny feeling..
Staring at the orange carpet, I couldn't recognize it. As if I was looking at it for the first time.
It was so unfamiliar all of a sudden.
And then I realized why.
I've stayed at my wai-gon's home in Kaohsiung for almost a month and I'd grown so accustomed to it completely.

And damn! San Francisco is freezing! ~_~

Oh and...Kelsey, thank you so much for coming to the airport to see me off.
I was so touched!. Hopefully we will be able to visit Japan together soon.

禧寧, 你到機場來送我, 我好感動
這次沒能狠狠的聊一場, 有點可惜...

不過能看的你和其他好友, 我已滿足啦
期待我們能夠很快再聚一聚
不論是在高雄, 日本, 或是美國!

外婆的料理

2005-01-05T17:19:00.000-08:00

好久了
想吃我外婆做的菜已經想了快三年了吧....
一直到現在, 我人已經在高雄了, 已經吃了好幾天外婆的料理
我還是覺得好不真實
外公外婆溫暖的笑容, 就在我眼前.....

真的, 好不想回舊金山

上個週末跟高中的幾個好友回到了母校左營高中
踏盡校門的那一瞬間, 好像又回到了五年前

的我

雖然校園改變了一些
我坐過的那一班
我上了三年的教室, 好似, 一點都沒變

是我這五年都沒變嗎?

我的高中好友們, 說改變嘛,也沒變多少
只不過, 大家都真的長大了一些吧
各自有各自的人生計劃了....

不過,愛虧人的個性大概永遠都不會變吧(笑)

台灣,可是是真的變了
人心變複雜了
笑容, 變少了.....

One of my Happy Thoughts

2004-12-30T14:08:00.000-08:00

Yes....seeing him all tied up is one of my happy thoughts....

Doesn't he look just yummy or what?!!!!

Think Happy Thoughts...Think Happy Thoughts...

2004-12-30T13:55:00.000-08:00

I hate to be cynical, but if you are only feeling "sorry" for those who died in the earthquake and Tsunami, it won't do a thing to help them at all.
With the "heart" and not the "hands" to put into action, all these feelings are all useless and a piece of crap.
I do not know if I've already become numb, call me cold-blooded if you want.

Trust me, I am one of those who might cry and feel crushed just seeing a dead body on the news.

I guess I am too afraid to know more about this disaster....

I hope those I know who live around that area...I hope you, your family and your friends are all alright.

Home at last......

2004-12-28T18:01:00.000-08:00

I am back!!!!

After an almost 24-hour delay, I've finally stepped on this land, Kaohsiung, Taiwan once again.
My hometown.
A place I've left for five years.

And now I am back for the second time, I feel as if I've left this country for ages.
Everything seems unfamiliar yet familiar at the same time.

Kaohsiung, to a certain degree, remains the same.
It's still hot! Right now, even during the so-called winter time, I am only wearing a short polo shirt and jeans..
I don't miss the cold weather in San Francisco at all! It's warm here and I love it.

I am in one of those "Cyber Cafes" now...my first time experiencing this popular hobby that most many Taiwanese youngsters devour themselves in countless hours everyday. It feels really weird indeed.

I was strolling on the streets that I used to walk almost everyday to my elementary school. Everything is almost the same, except everything all seem smaller now.

Seeing my dear wai-gon and wai-po(grandfather and grandmother from my mother's side) once again, I had to try very hard not to cry, even though I've psyched myself repeatedly before I came to visit them.
I knew that wai-gon is sick, but I didn't know that he would look this weak. He has lost a lot of weight and seems weak and not very energetic at all.
He is not the same wai-gon that I've known anymore. I am heart-broken just to see him in this condition.
He has Parkinson's disease, an illness that has always been something of no importance at all to me.
Now it's as closers to me as it can be.
Someone so dear to me has the disease but I can't do anything about it. The medication he's taking has so many severe side affects that he has become so weak...

Okay I will try to write a happier entry in a few days...I have to. :(

New layout. New beginning. Hopefully.

2004-12-04T05:05:00.000-08:00

Decided to finally switch to a new template.

My blog now look much much brighter and easier to read.
This brighter layout might get my spirits back to the usual me.
Keep my fingers crossed.

I haven't been myself for the past few days.
When that happens, I'd constantly reminisce what's in the past.
And that, is a very bad thing to do.

Need to move forward, need to move forward.
Umm...maybe repeat those words before I go to bed tonight might help.

Well, anyhow, will end my entry for today on a lighter note.
My little plan to get World Journal to write a news article on Project SHINE is going smoothly.

Although I am still not feeling comfortable of being interviewed and taken pictures of, the feeling of accomplishing a task, well, going to accomplish a task if everything goes as planned, is just great.

新版面.新氣象.

2004-12-03T03:03:00.000-08:00

換了個新版面
整個感覺開朗多了

期許自己的心情也會開朗起來

最近老是想著:
如果自己沒做什麼什麼
如果自己能做了這些這些
如果自己沒碰到這個人.....的話
現在的我,
應該是怎麼樣的...

很難控制自己的腦袋不去想這些沒有用的瑣事

如果可以
我想跟一個人交換頭腦
那個人只會想著: 明天該作什麼,以後該如何計劃

向前看....

是該強迫自己只能這樣做了...

半夜三更獨自打著自己blog的文
真是胡思亂想的好時刻呀(笑)

一直很喜歡這幅圖
已經不記得是在那裡找到的
是漫畫裡的插圖? 有人知道嗎?

發覺
跟我的新版面很合耶

Lately.

2004-12-01T01:02:00.000-08:00

Lately, When I Close My Eyes

I see,
everything but darkness.

I feel,
everything but serenity.

I hear,
everything but silence.

Uneasiness sets in.
The most unbearable five minutes.

Heck, am I sleep-deprived?

Fly!!

2004-11-28T23:55:00.000-08:00

FLY!!!

I need a pair of wings as well...
or I might just keep falling and falling....

阿....好麻煩哦

2004-11-22T14:23:00.000-08:00

It's hard to work together with others sometimes.....
If you are being nice, he/she might try to take advantage of you.
If you are trying to be fair, others might accuse you of being
unfair instead.

啊!!!!!好麻煩
現在我真正能了解,不是每個人都可以成為領導者
必須要有圓融的溝通能力和,
決斷的決定事情的態度

不是每個人都做的到的....

對我來説,拒絕別人是最難的一件事...
有時候我做個濫好人到連自己都受不了....

Well Thanksgiving is this week..
實在,不是很期待
家人都不在身邊...

Went to have lunch with a friend last weekend. We haven't really had time to get together for a while so we finally got to sit down and really talked.
It was fun.

上個周末跟一個有一段時間沒見面的朋友一起吃了飯
兩個人輕鬆的聊著自己最近發生的事

然後,忽然發覺

我們都不在是10幾歲的青少年了
我們的人生,已經過了快三分之一

哇...然後驚覺
我竟然還沒有男朋友!!!!(汗)
雖然不是很緊急的

但是說起來, 這也是我待在美國意願不高的主因之一

I wonder if I will ever settle down in USA...
and one significant factor that keeps preventing me from wanting to..
is the fact that I haven't be able to find the right person to settle down with yet..
And to find a place I feel that I belong to..

デコパ。。。。。。

2004-11-17T14:27:00.000-08:00

准一君、誕生日おめでとう！！！！

第一次真正看著你,是看完木更津貓眼的vcd之後
然後接下來,就一直沒有把自己的眼光從你的身上拿開過

雖然常常抱怨你為什麼不多話一些,為什麼不多笑一些
可是,我想就是這樣的你,現在的你,才會這麼的吸引著我的注意
如果你還是那個幾年前的准一,那個活潑開朗的大男孩
我可能對你只有:"阿..好可愛的男孩喔"的印象和評語吧
你真的是一個很有趣的人耶
現在的你,90%都是成熟的氣息
那剩下的10%,是那可愛至極的天然
現在的你,就是這樣成熟+小孩子氣,男人+男孩的混合體
就是這樣的你,讓我無法不注意你...

還是沒有一絲演藝圈的氣息,是我最喜歡的(虎牙剛也是*笑)
十五歲就加入V6的你,改變真的好大
不在於外表,而在氣質和你散發出來給其他人的感覺...
但是,一郎和小虎,都擁有著那一雙清澈真誠的雙眼呢
那,一直都沒變
也希望,永遠都不要改變

阿...該講的都講了(詞窮的藉口*汗)
最後讓我耍個fan girl的小小花癡吧....

剛要好好陪著准一過個最棒的生日喔!!!
然後,V4才准一起來祝小准生日快樂!!(大笑)

今天第二個entry..

2004-11-13T07:43:00.000-08:00

今天迷上了一首歌...或者應該說是歌聲吧

Sowelu.
她的聲音好溫暖.
很少有日本女歌手會讓我如此欣賞她的歌聲
Sowelu應該算是第二個吧

-from her latest PV "Last Forever"

寒い。。。。。。。。。。

2004-11-13T06:47:00.000-08:00

寒い！！！！！！！！

Damn it's freaking cold today........
Thank god I am going back to Taiwan for my winter break.....(hooo-ray~~~)

已經有兩年沒回去了吧...嗯.....

好興奮喔...好期待我外婆美味的料理..
好想念他們...

我目前的big obsession デコパ又快要長尾巴了...
剛剛在看V們上Lovex2的片段...小准那時好有年輕氣息呦(笑)
現在的小准,還是在V裡是ペット的存在嗎....
不知為什麼,現在的我老是把准一和黑色連在一起
那時上Lovex2的准一,應該是綠色吧
我是這麼覺得......

這樣的笑容,我最喜歡了

Just another ordinary day..

2004-11-11T15:44:00.000-08:00

The stormy weather woke me up this morning.
Reminded me of those typhoon holidays I had back in Taiwan.
The entire school was roaring with happy cheers when hearing the announcement that we got to go home early because the typhoon was approaching.

It was fun actually.
No TV. No electricity.
Just the four of us, my parents and my sister, having a candlelight dinner together.
I'd crawl into my bed in completely darkness, feeling safe and secure from the increasingly growing winds and rains outside.
It was a "scary" kind of excitement.
Like the anticipation I felt before a roller coaster begins to plunge from the top.
And knowing that nothing bad would happen.
Only that I was too young and naive to know that things aren't always that simple.
But I guess that's good for a child..

Finally got my little project going. Talked with a reporter from World Journal last night and she seemed quite interested in doing a news article on Project SHINE.
Now only if I could convince her NOT to take pictures of me coaching the students.
I am camera-shy!!! ^///^
I'd rather just stay behind the scene...

クイール

2004-11-10T15:08:00.000-08:00

Watched the movie クイール yesterday and like many others before me who've seen the film, I couldn't control my tears from falling down.
And smiled at the same time.

Not a trace of those overly-done dramatic and sentimental turns of events, this movie serves more like a documentary. Yet it's such a moving piece...
And I do need those kinds of movies from time to time to remind me that there are still goods in us.
To push me back to the less pessimistic side of me in other words.

Based on a true story, this movie chronicles the life of クイール, an eye-seeing dog in Japan.
Gently, through the director's unforced lens, we witness an extremely cute Labrador puppy(too cute!) to grow up surrounding by the love of his "puppy walkers", then to go through several tough eye-seeing dog training and finally to change a blind man, 渡辺満さん's life.
Opening someone's heart is a difficult thing to do.
But with クイール's patience, selfishlessness and profound devotion, he guided not only 渡辺満さん to walk safely throughout his daily life, but also guided 渡辺満さん to take a much more open and positive path in life.
クイール helped 渡辺満さん to see and experience the joy of living. Now that's a very remarkable thing to achieve.

Why are dogs willing to open their hearts completely to us human beings?
Is it because they sense that there are still many goods in us that deserve their love?
I want to believe that...

If you want to watch something very different from the typical Hollywood melodrama movies, do see this one.
Quietly, this movie moved me deeply..just like how クイール quietly changed those people's life around him.

Uncertainty

2004-11-03T15:53:00.000-08:00

I am sad, depressed, and disappointed. And confused at the same time.
I should be furious as well but somehow I am not.

So the Americans.
Those who voted.
A bit over half of them, chose image over mind.
Just like choosing between two apples.
The one with better-looking skin got picked.
Yes...I should've known.

I was aware how conservative and religious Americans are. Merely.
I really do know now.
The leader for this country for the next four years IS conservative and religious.
Those are not the qualities I deem important in a leader.
Especially a leader for a country so powerful and dominant.
Those qualities won't lead a country to a better future.
Under his leadership, I won't feel safe at all. That's enough of a reason for me to leave this country and be somewhere else but here.
And someone who cannot even admit he's wrong as the leader?

I believe that he and his administration represent the worst in American ideals and policies.

Where have the good sides of the American people gone to? =(
The open-mindednes. The generosity. Where have all that gone to?
Fear has blinded their mind and vision...

Confused because my mom delivered to me a stone-cold fact last night. That with what I am studying, it's unlikely for me to get a decent job back in Taiwan except an English teacher in one of those cram schools.

So I am stuck here. In this country. This place where I've tried, with all my efforts to love, but without much success at all.

Staring at my "Form N-400, Application for Naturalization," I wonder if I should still finish filling it out.
No. You want it?

Take it.

I refuse..

2004-10-30T23:25:00.000-07:00

Looking at a pic of an US Marine kiss a Iraqi young child, then series photos of ordinary people literally bathe in their own blood, I cannot help but wonder: what's all this for anyways?

I don't understand and never will.
Well I've tried to figure out why and the conclusion I came up with was a terrifying one....

Watching the news clips of violence repeatedly on TV. Then you've become numb. To the violence. To the dead bodies. To the broken down homes.
I refuse to do so...
Somethings exit do not mean they are right.

source: AP

An evil person I am...

2004-10-28T17:06:00.000-07:00

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Sixth Level of Hell - The City of Dis!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Moderate
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Extreme
Level 7 (Violent)	High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante's Inferno Test

Hey...seems like I am one hell of an evil person! wahahaha...

A dream...

2004-10-20T01:20:00.000-07:00

My only source to feed my weekly dose of Gakkou e Ikou is officially gone!! >____<\\\\

I guess those who are making profits out of those stuff are not very happy that momo simply put up those shows and files to share with others.
It was all about sharing wasn't it? I sure had fun not only leeching but uploading some of my own stuff...
Or maybe they are just too bored. So they attacked a website.

A stormy day with such a heart-warming news. How very lovely..

The hidden stuff....

2004-10-17T23:34:00.000-07:00

I finally managed to finish watching Ju-on: The Grudge over the weekend.
I couldn't finish it the first time. I was watching it by myself.
3 O'clock in the afternoon.
In broad daylight.
It took me almost two hours to fall asleep that night.
It wasn't that scary the second time around. Maybe it's because I was watching it with two other ppl and they were trying to make me laugh...
Still, the Japanese's definition of scare and horror is extremely different from American's.
Not much blood. No body parts flying all over the room.
It's what's in the air,the invisible atmosphere that's really scary.

Lyrics don't matter here.

2004-10-10T03:37:00.000-07:00

Sleepless Nights
Norah Jones
~Theme song for the upcoming movie Tokyo Tower~

Through these sleepless nights
I cry for you
And wonder who
is kissing you
Oh these sleepless nights
Will break my heart in two

Somehow through the days
I don't give in
I hide my tears
That wait within
Oh but then through sleepless nights
I cry again

Why did you go?
Why did you go?
Don't you know?
Don't you know?
I need you

I keep hoping you'll come back to me
Oh let it be
Please let it be
Oh, my love,please end
These sleepless nights for me

Why did you go?
Why did you go?
Don't you know?
Don't you know?
I need you

I keep hoping you'll come back to me
Oh let it be
Please let it be
Oh,my love,please end
These sleepless nights for me

My love,please end these sleepless nights for me

無眠的夜

在這些無眠的夜裡我為你哭泣
心中不停揣測誰在吻你
喔,這些無眠的夜將讓我心碎

但在白天我不屈服
我隱藏自己的淚水
在眼眶裡打轉的淚水
然而在無眠的夜裡我再度哭泣

你為何離去? 你為何離去?
難道你不明白? 難道你不明白?
我需要你

我仍懷抱希望你會回到我身邊
讓它成真吧請讓它成真
喔,我的愛請為我結束這些無眠的夜

你為何離去? 你為何離去?
難道你不明白? 難道你不明白?
我需要你

我仍懷抱希望你會回到我身邊
讓它成真吧請讓它成真
喔,我的愛請為我結束這些無眠的夜

我的愛,請為我結束這些無眠的夜

Downloaded the song in the first place because it's the theme song for Junichi's upcoming movie Tokyo Tower.
But now reading through the lyrics, it fits perfectly. How I am feeling now.
Yet strangely, I am not feeling sad.
Norah Jones' warm and passionate voice has an incrdible healing power.
Lyrics, don't really matter much here. They don't.

*Thanks to KaORu♥J.O for providing the lyrics

Now...the Chinese translated version (笑)

2004-10-09T23:17:00.000-07:00

Hey it's acually fun to translate my own stuff...

↓的中文翻譯版(笑)

現在忽然覺得有個自己的blog真好!!
可以罵我想罵的人...真是功效顯著阿
我四年前每晚哭著入睡所浪費掉的眼淚和時間..
拿來寫blog發泄不知有好上個幾百倍!

如果那個混蛋看到這篇的話,那就是太完美啦..
我已經決定我連把你當成朋友都不要了
你連當我朋友都不夠格!!(怒)

剛剛哭也哭夠了..(嗯..應該吧)
唉..我真的只能說..

一時為混蛋
永遠為混蛋

你真的一點都沒變, 你知道嗎?
套一句你自己的話, you are all fucked up. Yes you are.

我累了. 我以為年齡帶來的是成熟
我錯了. 年齡帶給你的, 只有denial而已
我想, 你是永遠不會改變的. 只會一而再再而三的傷害你身旁在乎你的人
我受夠了. 我真的很後悔遇見你. 非常後悔.
如果四年前那天我裝作沒聽見你的問題, 我們都只會是兩個永遠不會交會的平行線.
那樣, 該有多好呀....

你今天在那斑馬線我們錯身而過的那瞬間的眼神, 我可能在很久很久之後, 都會記得.
最殘忍的是, 你那不久之前才給我的承諾, 在那一瞬間, 真的顯得很可笑和空白.
可笑, 可是我哭了.
嘿, 我可是很體貼的連個招呼都沒有打哦. 不想給你難堪. 不想...
But you. You just looked away.
我就是這樣. 只會扮老好人的我, 最後獨自一人在角落舔拭傷口的, 永遠是我.

好累哦....好累哦.....

Get out of my life, you!

2004-10-09T22:50:00.000-07:00

I can not believe that I was hurt by the same person who I had sworn to myself that I would never care ever again. Four years later.

GET OUT OF MY LIFE, YOU!!!!!

What was even better was when he saw me on the street today, when we passed each other by, he would not dare to look at me.
I was being too nice and considerate again. Oh no no no, I wouldn't want to embarrass him and his "female friend", would I. AGAIN!
I looked away,too.
We were just like two total strangers.
I "almost" cried rest of the walk to my grandparents' house.
Hasn't four years been enough time for me?!!!! Apparently not..
Gosh...!! My heart still aches this moment I am typing this entry.....
This is so much of a cliche but...I really thought that he has changed.
Stop giving me hopes if you are still that same bastard four years ago!!

All these typing and crying..(yes I am crying now) actually make me feel better.
I guess four years is not enough. Yet I will do whatever it takes, to remove him from my heart. Eventually.
I really did realize today that he is not the right person for me.
He never will be.
I regreted meeting you and I still do today. You almost ruined my life. Well, I let myself almost ruined my own life by falling so deep for you.
My life will be so much much better off without you.

And why in the hell would you have a birthday that it's just impossible for me NOT to remember? Damn you!

加油!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-10-06T02:26:00.000-07:00

今天得知一個認識蠻久但從未謀面的友人住院了。
覺得很難過....
自己為什麼不每天就花點時間打個 "How are you"呢..

My dear sis, ....
(開始用我不算大的念力來傳送力量給人在遠方的你)
今年回來希望能看到你!!
我早就決定要送你Victoria's Secret的性感小褲褲給你了呦(偷笑)

所以

要加油把那討人厭的壞東西用力打出sis的體外!!!!

がんばってがんばって！！！！！！！！

I believe in you!!

Never, should we take for granted the presence of our loved ones around us...never.

My Inspiration

2004-10-04T23:50:00.000-07:00

Pictures overload!
I am too tired to type anything right now.

My inspiration: their smiles.

トトロと私の子供時代の記憶

2004-10-03T01:06:00.000-07:00

Watched my beloved "My neighbor Totoro" again tonight.
Again, was moved to tears.

トトロと私の子供時代の記憶

不管看了多少遍還是會感動落淚
宮崎駿畫筆下的童年是如此的溫和純淨
不做作不誇張就這樣感動了我
看著兩姐妹對著房間大叫來驅走自己心中的不安真是令人會心一笑
因為自己的童年也作過同樣的事呢....

同時也有感自己第一次看這部動畫的我的心情我早已不記得了...
那時的我應該還只是小學生吧...(X年前了...*苦笑)
現在的我看完這部片是有著這麼複雜的心情
那時的我第一次看完となりのトトロ的心情應該只是單純的
“阿...我也好想能遇見トトロ哦．．．” 吧
不過我還是覺得我是個很有童心的人哦..(幼稚的美化說法?*大笑)

啊~~~~~~~好想生活在看得到トトロ的世界裡!!

看完暴力成分為負10的となりのトトロ不禁想到..
研究指出電視上無數的節目裡
暴力比例最高的不是深夜的電影而是專門給小孩子看的兒童節目
仔細想想 90%的卡通裡主角解決衝突和問題的方法總是:打!
耳濡目染真不知小孩子對自己遇上的問題時的方法會做下什麼樣的結論呢...

小狐ちゃん...試試看把瀏覽器的語言設定調到"Unicode"(不確定中文是什麼)
再試著看看我的blog應該就沒有問題了

對了..我在我的blog上作了小狐的blog的聯結..可以吧?
應該先問過你才是..

Okay I am out of ideas for the title.

2004-09-29T14:03:00.000-07:00

I was watching a PBS show last night. Yes yes I am a huge fan to most of the programs on that channel.
They are airing a series called "origins," discussing how our planet was formed in the first place and how it was transformed into the world we live in today.
Even my descriptions on the program are dull as hell huh?
The ingenious producers, however, used the pop-culture cheesiness so well that the entire series look like a Sci-Fi movie.
It's actually exciting and got me so hooked to the show the first few minutes I started watching it.
Someone three hundred years ago came up with a theory of how a living thing was to be created.
First, you need a few pieces of cloth.
Then, a bit of wheat. Yes, that wheat.
Put the two ingredients into a long big glass tube, and after 21 days, mice would appear.....
Now isn't that just entertaining or what?
And they are gonna touch on the extraterrestrial life the next episode! Juicy stuff!

Now on to my fangirl silliness...

The two guys I cannot get enough of..

Lastly..I think I figure out what the problem is if you are having trouble viewing the texts on this blog.
You need to set the language encoding to "unicode" and everything should be fine.

Silence.

2004-09-28T01:01:00.000-07:00

If Bush is to be re-elected again as the president of this country, I am getting outta here. Seriously!

Either way, my plan of moving back to Taiwan is still unchanged.
I wonder what my grandparents will react when I tell them that when I get back to Taiwan this winter break...

After all, USA simply represents everything everyone wants, right?

The American Dream.

Umm...a country with no universal medical insurance and number of people dying of gun shots wounds is what..10 times higher than of those in Canada and 100 times higher than those in England?
I held very high expectations before I moved here. I did. Just like the most of them...
For now, I really do not have a reason to settle down in this country.

On a lighter note...my little story on my beloved denden maru is going nowhere...:(
I am stuck!
I almost tripped over and fell while walking home because my mind was completely on how to continue with the story...wahaha
Maybe all I need is a little bit of time....

And..at 2 AM, studying for my Japanese class quiz, all of a sudden, out of nowhere, I had this weird dejavu that I did the exact same thing years before.
Then I realized. Yes I did. Five years ago.
Studying my ass off for the College Entrance Exam. My last year in high school.
Woke up at 6 am. Studied. Lunch. Studied. Studied. Studied...till 3 am.
A life most high school students in Taiwan had to endure.
Looking back at that one year in restrospect now, I simply can not believe it was really me who went through it.
I guess being a forgetful person as I am has its advantages.
The most dreadful memories seem to have buried deep under my mind, nowhere to be found...

And to those who still celebrate this holiday...
Happy Mid-Autumn Festival!
Eat tons of mooncakes for me! =)

Ummm...test! *coughs coughs

2004-09-21T17:40:00.000-07:00

Okay I am coughing like there is no tomorrow.....

Damn!

But seeing a drawing of my favorite pair sure made my day...

And last night, all by myself, all of a sudden, sitting there, I picked up a pencil and started writing a story about them..(points to the drawing above).

Just like that.

The story is getting sadder and sadder by the minute..must try to figure a way to turn everything around and make it a happy ending....

It feels a bit odd since I've been trying to write in my native language but ...kept having trouble perfecting the story...
Now I am having no problem at all with my little story...in English that is.

All I want now, however, is some delicious sushi!!

Anything with Unagi!!